I've always wondered what it would be like to have my kids at school all day.
I'm a homeschooler. I have always had my kids at home with me.
There are some days when I wished they were at school. Days when all they did was fight all day. Days when the table was piled high with books and paper and pens and pencils and art supplies. Days when the floor was piled high with clothes and shoes and the ever present Lego's that I inevitably stepped on with my bare feet. Days when the house was a mess because we were doing school all day. Or days when the house was clean because we didn't do school that day.
I could never seem to do both.
But today they are gone. Today they started school in a place that was not home. It's been a gut-wrenching decision to send them, but it was what was right for us right now. It may not be right next year, or even next semester, or even next week. But it was right today.
And today I sent them off to school.
And I have been crying ever since I drove away from the school.
And now I know what it's like to have them in school all day.
It is lonely.
Friday, September 02, 2011
Happy because there is more room at the dinner table.
Sad because there is more room at the dinner table.
Happy because there is more dessert for all of us.
Sad because there are two less people to share dessert with.
Happy because we can use the smaller car to go places rather than the gas hog.
Sad because less of us are going places together.
Happy because the three drivers left each get their own car.
Sad because....actually not sad about that one!
Happy because 2 less kids to work my schedule around.
Sad because I don't know what they are doing each day.
Happy because they are off having awesome experiences.
Sad because there are a couple of holes in my heart.