Sunday, September 06, 2009

In Which I Don't Have To Juggle Alone

This morning I had words with my daughter. She was unhappy and that unhappiness was spread around. This was (is) a constantly occurring battle and I felt frustrated, angry, and helpless. I felt like a failure in my motherly duties. I felt the weight of the world was on my shoulders. This was yet another ball that I just could not hold onto.

I didn't want to go to church, but I went. I went with a cold, hard heart. My husband and I were not very respectful. We whispered our frustrations all during the Sacrament. Testimony meeting started and someone said, "I know this church is true." I started thinking about that phrase. What do people mean when they say, "I know this church is true"? As if that says everything! I felt cynical and judgmental. But as more testimonies were born and as people poured out their souls a little spark of an idea began to formulate in my brain and grew and expanded until it found it's way into my heart.

"I know this church is true" means that a loving Heavenly Father looks down and sees a soul that is hurting. And because he loves that person with a love that is beyond comprehension, he puts in the heart of another the truths that person needs to hear. But he doesn't stop with just one person. He keeps inspiring people to talk about the same truths until he penetrates that person's cold, hard heart. Then when the heart is softened enough he begins to whisper inspiring truths into the mind of that person. He tells that person that that person doesn't have to juggle all those balls alone. When that person gets tired of juggling balls, that person can just throw a few of them up to Him and He will hold them for awhile until that person is ready to take them on again. And if that person doesn't think she can take them on again, He says that it's ok.

He will juggle them for her.

"I know this church is true."


Yvonne said...

It is wonderful to know WE ARE NEVER ALONE and that The Church is true. Thank you for a great reminder.

I love knowing He is there helping me through everything.

Hang in there.

O Beautiful Mother said...

That was beautiful! Thank you for sharing. We have all had moments of feeling alone but when we stop and listen, ponder and pray we discover you are right, we are not alone to 'juggle' all of the tasks at hand and ones yet to be. Love you! Keep on the narrow way!